today is one year. its funny how like when you are in a relationship things go slow, but when you're out of one the equivalent time goes so much quicker. I cant believe a year has passed, that this time last year I was ballin my eyes out. It's quite funny.

and yet parts of me are still so angry.

moving on.

i just want to know if people know how to balance their lives. like do you know how to effectively balance

- work

- study

- classes

- friends

- lovers

- family

- errands

cos seriously. this is the first time in my adult existence that i have decided to take responsibility for my actions. and at first i was doing good with it all. actually to tell the truth; doing good and being happy actually just meant keeping up a healthy social life; at the expense of my studies. Then I shifter my focus to work and working long hours at the expense of my studies. and now i have managed to incorporate into my focus my studies (surprised i can) and its at the expense of my friends. This is taking its toll on me. All I see is my boyfriend. My other friends I havent seen in months. and when i do have a chance to see them something always comes up. I hope they aren't mad because seriously not planned. So burnt out lately.

And for what; money in the bank.. and D's and HD's on a piece of paper to validate the impulse and electric currents in my brain; and to certify that these have been to good use.

Sometimes I think that I could just simply be a ditz. You know get a retail job and a night job. Earn money to get clothes and I'll be happy. Or like just get an admin job. Ok maybe not. But still you know. I dont like using my brain, it hurts. I know it's there and it works i just dont like the idea of using it when I can half ass my way and get a similar effect.

You have no idea what I'm talking about, but the point is:

D's and HD's are good. But what about me?